I Ache

Wowsie, I tried a little bit of exercise this week and I am still hurting.  It wasn’t even anything big, just some stretching and some exercises based on Callanetics.  But apparently I have absolutely no muscles left.  I’ve come along way in the two and half years since Kevin died.  I was so dedicated to staying well during the time he was ill – I had to stay well and fit, he needed me.  We juiced everyday, we’d have smoothies with spinach, kefir, flaxseed oil, greens, banana, fresh fruit and veg, it tasted so good.   Kevin harped at me every day to be healthy and to make sure I ate right and did the right things.  He was trying all sorts of natural remedies too, so I had to eat them along with him.

Oh, and we also walked.  Kevin and I walked every day up until a couple of weeks before he died.  Remarkable really, through the ice and snow. I would strap some ice grabbers on his feet, we’d take the walker, and away we’d go.  It was only when the visiting nurse told him it was dangerous for him to walk anywhere that he stopped, not only walking but also trying.  Take away hope and you leave nothing.

Anyway, thinking back to how I physically felt at that time I’d have to say I felt very good.  Psychologically a mess, but physically in great shape.  So, I think it’s time to get back to what worked for me. I used two exercise routines, and I liked them. The Genius of Flexibility by Bob Cooley, and Callanetics by Callan Pinckney. Nothing ached when I was following my own hybrid version of their routines.  But, to get back to that point I foresee a whole bunch of pain!

The Blood Clot – Days 5 and 6

The blood clot continues to be a significant factor in our day to day lives right now.  The leg remains quite swollen and painful when required for any weight bearing activity.  We had hoped that much like it appeared the clot would leave in a similar fashion, fairly quickly.  Our conversation this morning was about what is normal and what is not with respect to the clot.  There is so much we don’t know – and there are so many variances from person to person that it likely is hard to give a sense of what is normal in these circumstances.  I know we are not entirely out of the woods until the clot is gone.  So although he has been instructed to resume activities – it’s easy for an able bodied person to say but it is frightening for the individual with the clot, he still remains apprehensive about both exercise and fluid intake.  He has no idea about what could aggravate it or how exercise may effect his body.  You need the exercise and movement to prevent the clot, but once you have the clot you worry whether exercise and movement could cause some to break away and do its damage.

Oh well – back to that whole education piece.  Again, its only words on a page that may or may not fit the individual’s lifestyle, situation or specific health concerns.  At least it gives an awareness of potential issues or outcomes.  We, he and I, are the major influencing factors in how this goes.

For those of you that want more information on blood clots, I found a pretty good website.  It has a section for patients and one for healthcare professionals.  I liked their layout better than most of the others I have found so far, it was easy to manipulate.  It is a US-based site and has a patient blog that is fairly active.  You can find it at:  http://www.clotconnect.org/