Bittersweet day. A very difficult day for the family. For my sister-in-law, it is loving the children that are here, but mourning the one that she lost. For me, it was acknowledging how big of a part my husband played in making Mother’s Day an ‘event’. This year it seemed as though the two of us hit the crazy zone at the same time and were absolute nut cases going into Mother’s Day.
I know I was a little crazed. I didn’t really even want to celebrate the day. I went to bed the night before thinking about how hard it must be for many people, not just for me. For those women who had lost children, women who never had children, women and men who never knew their mothers, or who had and had never liked them, for those who suffer or suffered abuse at the hands of their mothers. This ‘one size’ day of celebration could be a nightmare for many. Fortunately I woke up to the smell of eggs benedict and sausage cooking, an effective way to banish such thoughts!
Through the years Mother’s Day has typically been an awesome day for me. Because I had my children and their father to make it special. With Kevin gone it has lost a lot of its lustre, it carries a tinge of sadness that it shouldn’t. Now, what I hope is that my children, each with their own spouses, will make each and every day special for them, for their partners and their children. Look to their future, love what they have. I loved what I had and I am thankful that I had it. But now for me, as to Mother’s Day as an event, meh, I can do without it.