I just want to get it done


There is so much stuff in my house, and I know I will feel better once I get rid of some it.  It’s not as easy as that.  There are ties to everything.  The stupidest things can derail me.

Today I am working my way through the basement.  I had a flood there on Easter weekend and I moved a bunch of stuff and now it is either time to put it back or get rid of it.  I am trying to pitch as much of the stuff that I can but Lordy it’s hard.

There are two crutches in the basement.  I figure, meh, won’t need those again, I’ll give them to my daughter to put in her yard sale.  That was what I was thinking until I picked them up.  There on the side, in typical Kevin scrawl, was a message: “I just want the attention”.  He was such an idiot.  I loved him so.  So now the crutch isn’t just a thing anymore is it?  It becomes a tangible connection to the man who was.

God, this is still so hard.  When does it get easier?

 

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