Today has been a day that’s gone from bad to worse. Ever heard of that saying, “If I didn’t have bad luck I’d have no luck at all.” Two separate bits of bad news both equally devastating, both that I can’t share with my husband right now because they would significantly alter his state of mind. One is not mine to share anyway. I’ve been told to keep it quiet until the test results come back. Needless to say it is someone close, and the “bad” part of it is not knowing. The other bit of news is the death of a former co-worker of mine who we had met during our last visit to the hospital. Feisty and determined, she was a slip of a thing when we had met up with her, but her spirit and verve were undeniable. She just didn’t have the physical fortitude to go along with her mental toughness and her body let her down. Sad, sad day for me, I worked with her for years and absolutely adored her, she will be missed by all who knew her. I will tell him when the time is right but I will definitely not volunteer this information.
For me the most important thing to do is to maintain his state of mind, he needs to be positive, to feel the love and strength of all those around him. My commitment to him is to ensure that we keep looking forward and up, not backwards and down. That the aura around him is one of sharing, caring, love and happiness and strengthens his inner spirit.